Sunday, June 25

I've been around this world; and I see no end.


This weekend was great. A lot of smiling. Happiness. There was crying, but it was all consumed in weirdness afterwards. Which was laughable. Now as for today. My best-friend left, around 10a.m. I was told when I got up to call her. So, of course, when I got up; I called. Her cousin hung up on me. Nice, right? Of course. They don't like me anyways. Well, she called me back. She was crying. Told me about some stuff and I knew then I'd probably not see her for a while. I was so afraid she'd do something stupid. Scared. Worried. All of it. Torn, for the most part. I have the most best friend anyone could ever ask for. She's there to talk about anything. From yellow-spotted, purple monkeys, to serious issues. She'll always listen. Laugh. Cry. Talk. All of it. She begged me to get my parents to go up and get her today. I told her we couldn't do that. She was underage and my parents could get arrested for taking her. Knowing her grandma, she would have turned us in. 'Cause that's just the way her Grandma is. Well, I had to leave. Today is my grandma's birthday. So, I had to venture into town. Well, I was worried about my best-friend. So afraid that she might do something stupid, and I'd lose her. The whole way there, songs kept playing that reminded me of her. From the ones that we sang to in my bedroom, to the ones that played while driving in the car. I was scared. I did nothing but think about her and things she could do while I wasn't home. I wanted to stay and just talk to her on the phone and make sure she was alright. I couldn't though, I had already missed to major holidays at my grandma's. So, unfortunately, I had to go. When I got home I recieved a message on Livejournal, saying "I'm gonna miss you (a broken heart sign)." Automatically, I was even more worried, then I already was. Now, it's going to be a long time before I get to talk to her again. I hate not talking to her. She makes me happy when I'm sad. Makes me care when I don't feel like I could. Gives me someone to talk to and a reason to live. What more could you ask for from a best-friend? I don't think there's anything more possible. She's the only friend I've had that actually, likes being my friend. Likes being around me. Likes talking to me. For the first time in my life, I have someone there. Someone to hold onto when I'm sad. Now, that safety, that closuer, the way i felt yesterday, is gone. I can't talk to her. It's bad enough that when I got home I tried calling first, and her grandma picked up the phone and just pressed "end" and hung up on me. I hate being hung up on as it is. That just pissed me off. That and I don't really care much for her grandma, as likewise with that. She doesn't like me either. Works wonders. Now, I'm alone. I can't wait to hear from Shandi (best-friend), tonight. I just hope she didn't do anything stupid. =[

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[5] Smoked a Cigarette:

Blogger Butchieboy said...

OMG!

12:47:00 PM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

please! don't be a smartass butch. i'm not in the mood....

7:11:00 PM  
Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

I'm sorry that I had to leave.. I'm so sorry I really am.. and now your not calling me and I feel like I'm losing my life.. You was suppose to call me at 4. I've been calling collect n its been busy.. I miss you n now I'm afraid you just don't wanna talk to me... I don't know.. but I'm sitting here crying, so I'm just going to go. Remember I love you always n forever...<\3 I hope you call me soon... I'm really afraid that your just gonna quit calling n I'm not gonna get to talk to you anymore.. I'll die I really will... I love you<\3

3:27:00 PM  
Blogger Sara said...

Hey guys everythings gonna be okay you guys will get to see each other again....It'll just be like it used to for a while before you guys got to see each other....Once your 18 Shandi they can't stop you from seeing us...Everything will be okay although i do have to admit it's really weird not talkin to you shandi....And Amber you need to just cheer up tomorrow we get our tongues pierced!!!!!!!!Now that's pretty awesome isn't it....love ya guys ttyl....

5:07:00 AM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

haha love ya too sara. and i know shandi keeps reminding me.. lol ^_^

11:21:00 AM  

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