Thursday, June 1

I can't go on, if your gone.

I used to make you laugh,
I used to make you smile.
But that's not anymore.
It's nothing like before.
All the while you were there for me.
All the other times I was no where to be.
I was no where near.
My name I couldn't hear you scream.
This was all but a dream.
I let you slip,
I let you drift away.
That wasn't tomorrow that was today.
So hard to help you,
now that your gone.
I should have never,
left you alone.
76 I just thought was a number.
I never knew your pain was getting number.
I'm sorry I was never there.
It's kind of like you disappear.
I cry, every night,
wishing I would die.
I never wanted to see you like this.
I never got to give you that final kiss.
My last tear I cried.
My last tear right before I died.
I can't live in this world without you.
I can't live here being so blue.
Without you in my life.
There's nothing to be here for.
Not like I was ever around before.
I should have ran,
I should have walked.
Instead all I did was talk.
Now your gone.
All this time I was spending my life alone.
I never knew what I had.
Now that your gone,
I'm oh so sad.
You just got thinner and thinner,
until you couldn't get any thinner.
I should have stuck around.
I shouldn't have left those times you were down.
I used to make you laugh,
I used to make you smile.
I left you alone all the while.
Should have been around.
Should have picked you up while you was down.
Now that your not here.
There's no reason for me to be.
So here I go.
My final knowledge.
My final no.
I'm taking my life.
Just wish me a good-bye.

As for the poem, long time since I wrote a long one. Thought I'd post it because of that. This weekend Shandi is staying. And Megan. Probably Jaden, too. Not sure yet, if he's staying. Hopefully, this weekend is good. If not....GRRRRR!!!!! I'm actually surprised my parents are allowing this. I had to re-arrange, the living room, but it was worth it. So, I'm blogging from a different location at my house. lol. I should be asleep. I have to get up at 9am. Actually 8am. Grrrr...I don't want to sleep. I hate sleeping. lol. I have to wait 'til August 23rd to turn in any of my homework now. Didn't get it all done. Damn me. I don't know what else to say. Thanks Babs. For the advice. =]

[2] Smoked a Cigarette:

Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

I got up at 6:30 babe, can you believe that??? But yeah anyways.. It is gonna be a good weekend cause I'm gonna be there woohoo!!! Umm.. yeah I don't know what else to write. I love you!

3:59:00 AM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

I KNOW!!!!! lol An awesome weekend. I just hope we don't bore you. I have to sit out in the living room a lot this time. Cause mom said if I don't we won't see each other for a

11:26:00 AM  

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