Tuesday, May 30

"How do you get that lonely,"-Blaine Larsen.

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...

Monday, May 29

Vienna-Billy Joel.

Slow down
You crazy child
Your so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you’re so smart, then tell me why are you still so afraid
Where’s the fire? What’s the hurry about?
You better cool it off, before you burn it out
You got so much to do, but only so many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told,
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
Your gonna kick off before you even get half way through
When will you realize, Vennia waits for you

Slow down
Your doin fine
You can’t be everything you wanna be before your time
Although it’s so romantic on the borderline tonight, tonight
To bad that is the life you lead
You’re so ahead of your self that you forget what you need
Though you can see when your wrong, you can’t always see when your right
You got your passion, you got your pride
But don’t you know that only fools are satisfied
Dream on! But don’t imagine they’ll all come true
When will you realize, Vennia waits for you

Slow down
You crazy child
And take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
It’s alright. You can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize, Vennia waits for you.
That u can get what you want or you can just get old
Your gonna kick off before you even get half way through
When will you realize, Vennia waits for you
Why don’t you realize, Vennia waits for you
When will you realize, Vennia waits for you


The lyrics to the song I recommended on 360 to Shandi.

Sunday, May 28

Wanted!!!


So, in six days it's Emo Girl's birthday. That means, one dozen strippers, five dozen rubber duckies, a tub full of rubber guns, some new razor blades, a new hair piece that covers the other eye, and a brandon to fuck. So late last night she was caught shopping at wal-mart. Sneaking behind the bra section she was caught giving a towel rack a blow job. Surprisingly enough, the guards came, literally. They rushed over to find her laying on the floor with about a half gallon of white paint all over her face, or so they thought. She started running toward the door, cigarette in hand, and hopped in her car. She still is at large at this time. If you see her anywhere please contact your local autorities. She could be carrying a gang of rubber duckies. She's highly dangerous and should be handle with caution.

Photo Studio


A little morning fun with the photo shop was fun. Looks like we got some weird people in this world, aye? ha. ha.

Saturday, May 27

okay well after having hot mind blowing sex with jason/jimmy last night..i had to try and get him to go to his own bed....




hard work when he still wanted to dance...i gave him his binky and he seemed to settle down...still not sure if he ever made it to bed...seeing as i kicked him there.

Thursday, May 25

These hands were meant to hold.

Okay, so today, hmm today. Well, my mom's sick. Like always. No surprise there. Really, no, I'm not shocked. Hold thee applause. On to other news:


Butch was caught shop lifting at the local Krogers late last night. While riding along in his roto-scooter, he managed to get four adult magazines and a case of beer to fit down his well-fitted trousers. After taking his shirt of and exposing very graphic dances, he was arrested and thrown in the back of a police car. Where he is still awaiting to find out the time he gets for all this.



Hamburger was spotted switching from McDonalds to Burger King. He heard they offered more spit there. So, as a token of all his hard work, he transferred. They are now serving homosexual hamburgers at Burger King, for all who are interested.

Larson was recently released from jail, on a $200 bond. His wife posted bail. He should be at home eating home-made bread by now, and sipping tea. He was caught about three days ago giving little kids candy. In order to get them to take a "ride" on his pony. Although, he had not been caught in the action, they still are proceeding him.


Shandi has been signed onto modeling at the local hoes r' us committee. Were she was undercover as a model. She works for the CIA, or should I say, did. She was taken for leave after a series of getting the pronouciation of ten wrong. They couldn't give her checks because she couldn't unlock the vaults because of her tendacys of not being able to say the word ten, correct.


Bunny's cat was found naked in my bed this morning. No fur. No nothing. Bare as the day is. After a long night of mind blowing orgasms, the cat was exhausted. When she came to recieve the cat in the morning, it was tired. It couldn't walk, and I doubt it will for a few weeks. After last night, I don't think it will ever be the same. =]

Wednesday, May 24

Hmmm..Bad Butch? or Good Butch?

-walks to the corner of the street-

Hoe: it'll be $500.
Me: well I've got a $5 what will you do for that?
Hoe: Well it depends on what you want.
Me: Ice cream cone?
Hoe: **puzzled**
Me: So...
Hoe: **walks away**

-Exits hoe.

Me: I thought they liked cream. **confused**

-Enters Old Lady (a.k.a. Butch's Mom)

Me: what will $5 get me?
Old Lady: Well, my son likes to do things for $5.
Me: does he have anything with cream?
Old Lady: Well, he does have something with cream but it isn't that big. Definetly not worth your $5.
Me: Well...Where is he?
Old Lady: the blue oyster
Me: Okay talk another time

**Walks away**

-Enters the blue oyster-

O.o...........o.O

Me: uhhhhhh **confused**
Butch: what are you doing in here?
Me: looking for you =Butch: what the fuck do you want kid?
Me: **hands him my $5**
Butch: **gets on his knees**

.....**plays scary music**.....


Me: Thanks.
Butch: no problem

-Exits stage right.....

Hmmm What did Butch do??????

Sunday, May 21

Time To Get High




Just let me go. Somewhere, one place, on my own. Let my face shine. Let my heart be mine. You say you love me, then leave me. You won't let me be. I try my hardest not to disappear, but it's so hard when you're always here. Why am I so afraid. What would I possibly be able to lose today? I've got so many ours and a day. I spend them the same. Every time I think of you. My heart falls through my chest. You've torn me apart, you've done your best. Just let me hit the floor, don't love me anymore. I can't take them words. That's all I've heard. Everytime I turn around. Your always there to help me when I'm down. I'm just now noticing I need you now. You're the best thing that's happened to me. It's about time I just left you be. Let you go on and make all these memories of us gone. I'm sorry for the way I am. I'm sorry for the way I act and stand.

Shandi stayed this weekend. It was cool. We stayed in my room most the time watching movies and things. Well, that's all I got, for now.

Friday, May 19

Fuck all ya'll!

I won't be updating all weekend. Shandi is staying and I don't have time for you guys. I have so much I have to do and so little time. haha. Just kidding. But yeah you all suck giant cock.

George is a fag.
Jason is a girl.
Butch is the king. (lol riggghhttt)
Shand is the best.
Hamburger is a loser. (not the good kind either)

Thursday, May 18

I hate my dad (has nothing to do with below but it's true)

This is where the road crashed into the ocean,
It rises all around me and now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces will choose to ignore
Curse my enemies forever
Let’s slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy
I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I’m pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk
But talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you

Wednesday, May 17

Want to be a Rockstar

Limousines, champagne Get my clothes custom made I take handfuls of pills trash my house in the hills Smash up my cars Just to give me my thrills
Well I'll break all the girl's hearts Bring’em down to their knees I do what I want Yeah I do as I please
I wanna be a big rockstar I wanna drive a big black car When I’m a big rock star
Want my face, on my wall Want Cameron Diaz just to give me call I’ve been nobodies fool Gonna die while I’m cool I make all their laws And i break all their rules
Porno stars King of sleaze Dirty movies Hey look at me
Velvet rope V I P Hollywood cowboy Mamma look at me
Backstage is my thing So get in the ring We do anything Coz here I’m everything
I wanna be a big rockstar I wanna drive a big black car Who the hell you think you are!

Tuesday, May 16

Wish

I don't want this. I don't need this. I don't feel this. Seems that even though she's with me. I can't shake this. I can't fake this. I won't take this, anymore. You believe. That's the way you chose to be. I've always had to see, the fear that's lived deep inside of me. I can't beat what I can't see. I'm won't be unless you're with me. I'm losing it. Blood fading from these lips. Life slipping from this soul. No time, no chance, of ever getting old. Took my last breath, and wished for death.

Monday, May 15

I Caught Fire-The Used

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin...

(I'm melting, Im melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing
(why cuts aren't healing)
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
We could take our heads off
stay in bed and just make love that's all
(stay in bed, just make love that's all)
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting

In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me
(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

Sunday, May 14

Happy Mommy's Day



Mommy's day was awesome. Didn't do much really. Watching Jar-Head right now. It's a kind of lame movie. Well probably because I'm not really paying attention to it. I'm writing this, so, I'm off here.

Saturday, May 13

My Whole Life Is A Fake



Today has been so bad. It started off okay. I got up at 11 and called Shandi. Then around 12:30p.m, I got off the phone with her and came to the living room and watched a movie. I want to draw right now, but I can't. I suck at it. Like always. I just feel like burying myself in a hole, for some odd reason. I should just go back to sleep. I don't know what to do today. I can't wait 'til next weekend. I have to call Marley today. To figure out when that Jazz band thing is, so I can go. I'll probably take Shandi with me. =] I can't wait 'til next weekend, wait I said that already. Well I don't know what else to write.

Butch is a fucker.
Larson is a douche.
Hamburger is gay.

Enough said.

Tuesday, May 9

Panda Picture from forever ago.




Retarded panda i drew a while ago. You can kinda see what i wrote beside it.

Friday, May 5

Eh...mROAR

Well, it's officially 4:36 in the morning and I still can't fall asleep. This sucks! I have to get up in less then 5 and a half hours, and I can't sleep. Lucky me, right? I don't even know why I can't sleep. It's probably because of the fact I haven't went to my shrinks to get my pills. Oh well, I can't. She said the only time she's availible is in July. Fuckin' shrinks, I swear.

IMPEACH BUSH!

Wednesday, May 3

Woooo =]

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*Currently Chewing Glass*

Sitting here. Home alone. Being bored. Fun, right? No, not at all. Shandi is eating. I'm waiting for her to get done. She's going to call when she finishes. I get to stay with her this weekend. ^_^ Yay! -parties- -throws confetiee (spelling) in the air- Okay. I'm done. =|

So, I've decided. Satan is way more cool than Jesus. Why do people worship Jesus. He did good for people. Who the fuck wants to do good for people? I mean, everyone lies. Fuckin' Sinners! I'd have to say sinning is more fun than abiding by a stupid book. But then again, that's my opinion.

If your hearts still beating then it must be your blood. If your legs are still standing it must be in your ribs. Its kind of funny how I'm not listening anyways. Fuckin' A. What am I talking about? Hell if I know. I'm just randomlly putting things down. Blah junky junk.

Tuesday, May 2

I Think Off To Nowhere Bad.

In my heart, lays a memory, of the perfect love you gave to me. When you're with me, I'm free and careless. I just want to tell you, how much I love you. If only the day were long enough. I'd tie down the moon. Lay the stars in your hands. Just to show you how beautiful you are to me. I want to take all the water in the ocean, pour it in front of you, and let you watch it sparkle in the moon light. Still, the beauty of that, isn't as beautfiul as you. =]

Fucken A Righty O.

Over -N- Out

I found something out today. ^_^ If I continue with homeschooling, I will be a senior next year. Which means I will graduate when I'm 16. ^_^ Woox, woox. -dancey dances-