Tuesday, April 18

Losing it all...

I'm losing everyone. I've lost most of my friends, already. Now, they're all leaving me left and right. I'm tired of ruining peoples lives for once. I took a walk down to the rocks today. Wasn't as good as i thought it would be. My sister joined me. I think that's what didn't make it as good. I mean don't get me wrong i had fun. I just kind of need time to my own right now. Time to figure everything out. Tomorrow I'm going on a very, very long hike. Where i may stop, I'm not sure. I'm not going to any place anyone knows. The place I go when no ones home sounds like a great place for thinking. I just need to think tomorrow. I'm not going to be online as much, or the phone either. It's going to be an alone day. Days i had before all of this drama. I need a break from reality right now. I need a place i can go and hide. Hide enough to get away from everything. Everything has changed in three days. Everything was fine about four days ago. Now, it's all in shambles and broken like mirror on the floor. I can't glue these pieces back together, why? Because they are just simply too small and most of them are far gone by now.

"Keep me caged, in order to not free the beast. Fear is not in these eyes and what there was will never be."

LET ME DIE ON MY OWN TERMS

[8] Smoked a Cigarette:

Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

im not getting to talk to you tomorrow.. im sorry for everything i mean i feel like its my fault cause of the things i was writing on my blogs, i mean if i wouldn't have wrote stuff then none of this would have happened. but im sorry i really am. and i love you =(

6:41:00 PM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

Don't be sorry seriously, none of this was your fault. Everything is my own to blame. I love you too.

6:49:00 PM  
Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

don't blame yourself okay.. and i mean some of it is my fault. i shouldn't have told sara.. n idk.. lets just forget about it okay. n you be HAPPY!!! please for me, at least try n be. i love you more than anything.. so be happy about that okay!

6:52:00 PM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

Yeah, happy i can do that. i'm talking to the two greatest people in my life.

6:58:00 PM  
Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

Okay, for 1. You don't ruin anything for me okay. 2. You are there for me, I mean everytime I need you, your there, you might not do anything to help me, but you listen n thats all I ask for. 3. We're always going to be best friends.. we're going to be old together n we'll be the 2 old women going to walmart n making asses of ourselves still n being stupid n not caring what anybody thinks.. we're gonna always have each other... I promise you that your NEVER EVER going to lose me, not unless you want to. 4. Why are you sorry about the phone call? 5. Don't be sorry about anything okay? you didn't do anything.. I love you.. always!!!!!!

6:59:00 PM  
Blogger Shandi Kincaid said...

i miss you babe... you like uhh.. changed what you wrote in one of those comments or something.. its different. about the being happy n two greatest ppl and things.. idk.. im glad i called you last night n talked n im glad that we're umm uhh. .yeah.. you know... i love you babe..you need to get you ass up out of bed.. you hear me!!? GET UP!!!!!!! hahaha... i love you so much!!!!

8:09:00 AM  
Blogger Butchieboy said...

Miss you, babe.

7:55:00 AM  
Blogger ♥___Kid.™ said...

=| you miss me? What the crap?

11:11:00 PM  

Post a Comment

<< Home